On Valentine's Day morning four years ago, a group of end-of-life doulas arrived at the Northern California home of Barbara Hazilla just hours after she died.
The volunteers cleansed Barbara's body, used dry ice to help slow decomposition and then wrapped her body in a shroud of scarves and blankets.
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